This is me at my darkest.

WHERE DID THIS JACKET GO

Mon, 15 Oct 2012 22:24:43 -0400

WHERE DID THIS JACKET GO

Hello phoenix

Thu, 31 May 2012 19:16:58 -0400

Hello phoenix

I know how this must look.

Sat, 21 Apr 2012 11:19:51 -0400

I know how this must look.

oliviasucks: trashy is the new classy this picture makes me...

Sun, 15 Apr 2012 21:38:24 -0400

oliviasucks:

trashy is the new classy

this picture makes me laugh

Photo

Wed, 11 Apr 2012 19:14:40 -0400

This is by far the worst day of my life.

Sun, 08 Apr 2012 19:00:03 -0400

This is by far the worst day of my life.

Everything sucks. Jake says he’s done. I woke up in jail. My life is hell.

Sun, 08 Apr 2012 18:59:16 -0400

Everything sucks. Jake says he’s done. I woke up in jail. My life is hell.

Gloriosu

Fri, 27 Jan 2012 15:27:55 -0500

Gloriosu

Daddio

Fri, 27 Jan 2012 12:49:34 -0500

Daddio

Lol I remember this this hip ass piece of shit use to be my car.

Wed, 25 Jan 2012 16:43:14 -0500

Lol I remember this this hip ass piece of shit use to be my car.

This tv is older than me.

Wed, 25 Jan 2012 13:19:17 -0500

This tv is older than me.

My friends were all I had,

Mon, 16 Jan 2012 05:24:13 -0500

and I trusted them with everything, I believe them to be there for me.
But they have all turned their back, and I don’t know what to do anymore.

Maybe I’ll die soon, like in a some obscure accident.I hope so, honestly.I’m so...

Fri, 27 May 2011 23:04:55 -0400

Maybe I’ll die soon, like in a some obscure accident.
I hope so, honestly.
I’m so selfish.
I want to die so people will miss me.
Because right now nobody even talks to me anymore.
I’m on rocky terms with everybody.
I feel like everybody’s been talking about how horrible of a person I am.
I can’t believe I was so fake and didn’t even realize it.
I talked shit on everybody I hung out with.
I’m such a horrible fucking person.
I know karma now. True karma.

It’s hard to admit how much of a piece of shit I am.

I'm a shitty friend.

Fri, 27 May 2011 22:48:56 -0400

Every person I surround myself around I know little shit about that they’re ashamed of.

I was always that person that listened to everybody’s sob story and now when I’m around them that’s all I think about.

I constantly think bad thoughts about my “friends”. Now I just want to stop being around them.

I’ve never tried to hurt myself intentionally, but if I went to far, I know I wouldn’t...

Tue, 24 May 2011 16:00:36 -0400

I’ve never tried to hurt myself intentionally, but if I went to far, I know I wouldn’t have cared.

I don't like bad significant others.

Mon, 23 May 2011 21:39:00 -0400

I’ve figured it all out.

Every single guy I talk to doesn’t cheat on me but he talks to other girls like I don’t exist.

I can’t hold anyone’s attention.

This might not make any sense, but it makes sense to me.

I don’t know.

I think Dyl is still with me because I do his homework, steal shit for him, drive him around, and buy him all kinds of stuff.

I NEED TO QUIT THESE ACTIONS.

I am a last resort.

Sat, 21 May 2011 00:46:21 -0400

For all of my friends.

Nobody ever calls me to hang out, I call them. Sometimes, well… most of the times, they don’t answer.

I have no real friends. I have no one to talk to anymore.

I haven't posted much lately.

Fri, 20 May 2011 00:33:28 -0400

A lot of stuff has happened.
I’ve been seeing a therapist, she’s nice, quiet. She hypnotized me, or tired. She said I didn’t reveal much. She said that means my preconscious notions are scared of being found, or something like that. I was diagnosed. And I’m kind of scared.

Psychosis: Psychosis is a loss of contact with reality, usually including false beliefs about what is taking place or who one is (delusions) and seeing or hearing things that aren’t there (hallucinations).

Causes, incidence, and risk factors

A number of substances and medical conditions can cause psychosis, including:

Alcohol and certain illegal drugs, both during use and during withdrawal
Brain tumors or cysts
Dementia (including Alzheimer’s disease)
Degenerative brain diseases, such as Parkinson’s disease, Huntington’s disease, and certain chromosomal disorders
HIV and other infections that affect the brain
Some prescription drugs, such as steroids and stimulants
Some types of epilepsy
Stroke

Psychosis is also part of a number of psychiatric disorders, including:

Bipolar disorder (manic or depressed)
Delusional disorder
Depression with psychotic features
Personality disorders (schizotypal, shizoid, paranoid, and sometimes borderline)
Schizoaffective disorder
Schizophrenia

Symptoms

Psychotic symptoms may include:

Disorganized thought and speech
False beliefs that are not based in reality (delusions), especially unfounded fear or suspicion
Hearing, seeing, or feeling things that are not there (hallucinations)
Thoughts that “jump” between unrelated topics (disordered thinking)

I am taking a blood test soon, to test for abnormal electrolyte and hormone levels.

All I have to do to stop this from going any further is quit smoking. That’s it. Why don’t I just do that?
I’m such a weak willed person now-a-days.

I hate that we barely talk now.

Mon, 16 May 2011 13:57:59 -0400

When we use to talk every single day. I hope you read this. Maybe you’ll stumble across it one day.
I hope so.

Discontent.

Wed, 11 May 2011 13:59:41 -0400

I don’t really know why.
Probably because I have nothing to do.